4:29 a.m. jargon

it was on that cheap carpet in that shitty apartment

in secret

sunlight spilling across the floor 

i looked into your eyes

and you looked back 

with more than just your typical hollow stare 

so i tightened my grasp around your neck

as you rested your head down beside mine

and you pulled out 
we may have even said i love yous
because we do that sometimes

but i know you remember this day 

for the exact reason that i do

that ringing in our ears

because why 

not that it was anything that it wasn't

but still how

i know you wonder about the ringing

and i know you remember

us pacing around the room with our pants down

and fingers in our ears

did we just let go
oh yea

 youre too scared anyways
so it doesnt really matter
like everything else.